Things got really serious on the latest episode of The Bachelor.
On a one-on-one romantic date with Colton Underwood, Caelynn Miller-Keyes decided to share a very painful part of her past.
Caelynn revealed that a group of male acquaintances at a party allegedly drugged her wine glass, as well as the drinks of two of her friends when she was a sophomore in college. The next thing she knew, “I woke up the next morning and I was completely naked in my bed and I knew that something bad had happened,” she says.
“My life was flipped upside down,” she tells PEOPLE. “And even though I’ve moved on, it is something I will struggle with forever.”
A friend at the party, who had not been drugged told her that one of the men had had sex with her while she was lying unconscious in the bed. The same friend alleged that “another guy, I was passed out on a couch from the drugs, and … in front of his fraternity brothers … lifted up my dress, they watched and laughed and took photos and Snapchats. It was horrible,” she told Colton on The Bachelor.
Caelynn decided to go to a hospital to do a rape kit but was turned away.
“They told me they wouldn’t do a rape kit unless I filed a police report. At that point, these were friends of mine and I wasn’t entirely sure what had happened, so I wasn’t positive I wanted to file a police report. But later that night, I did, once I figured out what had really happened.”
“The reporting process is a lot more difficult than people realize. I had no idea what to do. I was completely stranded, I was completely alone. I didn’t even think it was possible to be turned away from a hospital. Thankfully, I had a good support system and people went to a second hospital with me and I was able to get a rape kit and speak to authorities and go through that process. But it’s a lot more difficult than it seems.”
She continues: “By the second hospital, so much time had passed, the results were inconclusive.”
Only one of the men was expelled from school; the others were not punished.
“Even though they got away with it, I’m happy that I still fought. I can live with myself and know that at least I tried and I pushed and I went after justice.”
“It’s been hard, but it shaped me as a person and shaped me into who I am today,” she says. “It’s a dark part of my history, but I’m not going to let it diminish who I am.”