JoJo Fletcher blogged about the devastating rose ceremony where she sent Luke Pell home and Chase Mcnary’s ‘Excruciating’ Fantasy Suite rejection.
“Saying goodbye to Luke was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. Navigating these relationships isn’t easy. This journey is amazing, but it has its heartbreak along the way. I am here looking for a husband and partner in life.
My struggle with not knowing where Luke stood held me back from falling for him. Watching him drive off, I was terrified I had maybe made a mistake. Looking back on this moment, it is hard to watch. But I still think I made the right choice for me. I know a lot of you guys probably find it hard to understand my decision, but love is confusing and I had to follow my heart.”
About The Fantasy Suite Rejection –
“The last time Chase and I had time together was during his hometown in Colorado. Before we parted ways he told me he was falling in love with me. I know for him, opening up carries a lot more weight. But this man is one in a million, and I was so excited to see where this day was going to take us.
The second I saw Chase my heart lit up! It had been about a week since I had spent time with him, and I really missed how playful and affectionate he is with me.
Heading into the dinner portion of my date with Chase, I was excited to spend more time with him. But I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that a lot was weighing on my mind. I was already in love with two men who loved me back. I kept thinking, Will Chase get there with me? Will I be able to get there with Chase?”
She continued –
“Giving Chase that Fantasy Suite card was me needing more time with Chase, more time to explore where our relationship could go. When Chase told me he was in love with me, I felt an immediate wave of confusion. I was overloaded with emotions of happiness, regret, fear and sadness.
Don’t get me wrong, it felt wonderful to hear Chase tell me those words. Words I know are hard for him to say. But it was a terrible feeling to still feel confused after hearing something I’ve been longing to hear for some time. I knew in that moment that something didn’t feel right. I realized that all I needed was time. I still needed more time. But I decided that one night wouldn’t be enough.
Breaking up with Chase was excruciating. I didn’t want to say goodbye. But I felt like it would have been unfair to spend the evening with him when I didn’t think that things could change for me overnight. Watching this back, seeing how much pain I caused Chase, it fills me so much sorrow. It still remains one of the hardest moments of my life.”
To read her full blog on last nights episode, go to people.com.
The Bachelorette: Men Tell All airs Tuesday at 8 p.m. ET, and The Bachelorette‘s finale airs Monday at 8 p.m. ET, both on ABC.